No Tears

Today the announcement of SIMAK UI has been published. Tadaaaaa... not passed again. 

But this time I have no fear and tears. Strong enough to face it. It seems I have to be a part of UNJ. Never mind! I did my best. And all the choices I tested for are what I really want. Architecture and Architecture Interior :) I would not choose other program which has a little enthusiasts which they are not really what I want. Not just because of the name of university so that I can look so clever and cool even though I chose what I don't want. Uhm yeah, the name is important too but not at all for future.

We ourselves put our way wherever we live.Whatever your race, religion, nationality, school, university etc, you just live for yourself. Yes yourself.

Know my friend passed it, I'm very happy and proud of them :') Never gone crazy or super duper envy. They are awesome :)

Me and Dad were checking the promo ticket for this Saturday. Geez,expensive -__-" Dad said,"What we can do.We have to buy it or you'll not go to University this year."

Hmm..deep in my heart I whispered, "If it is so,i still can register for Jakarta Culinary Center, Dad!" SMIRK.

Weew.. Parapat was so hot. Messy hot.

For my friends who don't get 1 chair in PTN, "Semangat!" :)

Happy Tuesday :)

PRICELESS!

Why? Why I call this week as wonderful? This is the first week being 18. Thanks God i'm still teenager. Hahaha.. Poorly,my first tear fell down in July 9th. In the morning,because of someone. You know that time i was going to go testing alone. Hmm..sick!

And tererereret..in 12th day of July --this is the REAL MOMENT I'VE WAITED FOR-- I met my best friend :) Best of the Best.We had a lot of laughter. They're still the same people who i ever played with when childhood :D

They are Nancy and Lenny uhmm plus Jojo..hahaha. We met at our new home. After 1 hour talking we decided to go to Pagoda. Unbelievable,we met Grace,Sari and Evita too. Actually Baskoro too but he just ride his motor and shouted."Woy!" Errr non sense. Again lot of laugh too. A plan for tomorrow has been decided. Tuk tuk is our destination. Tons of memory happened there. Unforgettable one! We had good talk, laugh, ride bycycle,eat and other stuff! :)

Blessed.

I wore my mom's tops when she's being a teenager! Cute :)))

Long time no biking :)

My Bike

Smile :)

Finally we have photo together :)

Automatic needed! LOL

Met our teacher in SD 3

Yesterday was unforgettable moment either. I passed my UMB thingy. Yay!

I am soooooooo happy :)

 

p.s : by the way my legs were aching so bad after biking. Haha..I can't sleep that night. Poor me.. ;p

Lucky Day!

I wished you were at my door and i'd open up and you would say,"hey happy birthday!This night is sparkling.I just wanna dance with you along this empty road for your first day being 18." ♥ ♥ It's so fairy tale.

I don't know why that line came up on my mind. Haha just forget it, guys. Not so necessary,right? By the way this is my first day being 18. Happy? Yes, I am. There's not any celebrating anyway. I'm just always happy like this. If I like, I would tell my parents to make celebrating party. Hehehe..fair?

At 00.00 my brother said happy birthday to me,then my mom,my youngest brother. They bought me a little cake.Umm..Dad still slept that time. I knew he's so tired :") But he didn't forget, the upcoming afternoon..hahah afternoon, he kiss and hug me :)

Frans, my friend, was the first one who said it via text. Thank you, Frans :) Then a lot of friends sent me text, wall post on facebook, and tweet on twitter. Thank you so much!

Every my birthday, I don't call it as Best Day. For me it's my annually lucky day, it's gonna be different with my previous birthday. Every my birthday, I try to make people around me happy. :)

So what's 18 for me? It's just a real start how to be a mature girl. Yes mature girl, I'd like to be called as girl than a woman. Woman?! Not yeeeeeeet.Errrr

In this new age,i wanna be an active and productive girl. I mean,i will fully make my hobbies real. Get what i mean?Hahahahhaha.. Such as cooking, designing, painting, blogging :) Wish along this age, I make my parents proud of me. Actually I'm not childish anymore. Just threw it awaaaaaay.

Happy birthday too for ONE TIME! It's been 2 years, Justin!

Forget the past for the next lesson to survive.

I'm still wishing here to be a pastry chef.

Being Seventeen

3 hours to go till I hit my new age. I'm gonna hit my 18! I love eight. It's my lucky number. Wanna read my story for being seventeen? Of course with a lot of sweet and bitter moments. Hahaha.. Umm.. sweet or bitter first?

 

Last year, the first day I'm being seventeen girl, in midnite, I got kiss and hug from my mom and brothers. Dad still awoke. I didn't know why he didn't say it that time. I just cried over my blanket. Umm..I got gift too from my mom. A little cute-teddy bear, cute speakers, and beautiful pen :)

And as 17 girl,the first day as well i was being a really senior high school student. My crush and I were in the same class room. Hehehe... He was cute for 3 years. But now, he isn't. Hahahahahaha.

Failed. 

 

People said for being seventeen was wonderful. But I think it was just the same with the very previous year. No. Not same at all. Don't ever forget I always love my childhood-year. Always..

This age was so full of love, cry, laugh and stuff. This age, I often cry over night. Not because of boy, but because of my close family member. Not cool. I should accept whatever their comment not by crying :'(

 

I also indirectly asked to grow up mentally. Uhmm me too, I made some of my family member cried because of my action. I never want this though. I had made them disappointed. Sorry...sorry and sorry.

Maybe they forget my birthday...maybe. 

 

So, I'll go bed faster than usual.
:(

Really?

Long time no posting anything here. Too busy in Medan. What the... I should coming home yesterday. Blame it on UMB. It made my day sick.

Last Sunday i tested in SMA 2 Medan for simak UI. I ordered taxi because I think it's gonna be easy for finding the location. Errr...the taxi driver didn't know my address. It was until 6.50 a.m i wait till their office called me.I said, "I still can wait." Then that lady on the phone said that she will call me 10 minute later. But five minutes later I called them and i cancelled my order. Silly..

I choose to take betor --becak motor.He said he knew that school. But in fact,he didn't. Fuck off! I was late.In my watch i late 5 minutes,but in that school's clock,i late about 15 minutes. :(  Fortunately they the commitee were not angry. The drop me to my room. Hehehe...

The questions were very difficult so I just filled what I found. May they're correct. I never promised to anyone that i can fix that i'll past the test. Never. Just please never press me off.
I was shocked,when the break time i found my friend Gallery in my room too. But he has passed the SNMPTN thingy. Lucky :)

Now,i'm registering for UMB. It's suck cause the form not so rapid. Zzzzz. I hope the available university there accept me. The National University which participate for UMB is soooo little. No one has located in Bandung. :(

Hehehe..last this four days I always very happy. There's someone who really cares to me :D . He's such my big brother. Does he assume for unpredictable relation? I don't know. I just know he cares. He's someone new I though. But i don't want take any conclusion faster. Just trauma..really really trauma.
For boy who text me yesterday,i just wanna say,

And if you're missing me, you better keep it to yourself. Cause coming back around here would be bad for your health. I'm just sitting here planning my revenge (?)

This keyboard in internet cafe is bad. I should not choose sitting hereeee. I prefer in number 8.
By the way I'm excited for package which Kak Lena sent. I assume it as my birthday gift for this July.

A Brand New Day

I don't know what significantly make me happy today. Maybe because Dad showed me how he can understand about yesterday and mom, too. Texting with Canggi make me happy, just comfort. My other friends who didn't reply my text made me like I don't care or something hahaha.

By the way,i'm so happy knowing that my friend in junior high school passed the test. They are accepted in National University which is Goooooooood. Unbelievable though, but here we go, we can live in past,right? I love my friends. They're really make me feel 'hey,you're not alone' :') 

 

Usually, we used to have reunion on holidays. But now, we are busy as hell. Don't ask anymore. It's school thingy.

 

Tomorrow, I'm gonna leave Parapat. On July 3th, I will test for SIMAK UI. Hope that test will come better for me. Umm it should be today I left. But I changed my plan. Maybe I'll be in Medan until UMB got done.
The support of friend and family are making me enthusiastic for the next test.

Espíritu! <3

My Best Words on June 29th

Yesterday was "that" day. Yep,the result day of my test. So afraid of getting hurt by the announcement. And it really happened.It should be announced at 7 p.m. I always checked them before the fixed time. I can open it!I can! First view i see was "TIDAK DITERIMA" or not accepted. I was shocked and 'die' for a while. I know why I didn't pass the test. I had done my test well. The problem now is i can't fill 1 chair on that university because they just accept 15 persons for Interior Architecture and 30 persons for Management. See? Even though you filled the paper well and really had done it well, no one could guarantee that you'll pass the test easily. Imagine that, last year there were 600 people who wanted to get into that faculty. How many percent?

The other problem came up. The hardest problem. My parents was disappointed. Just like.. angry to me. It made me cried over night. I cried after seeing my result but in the night I cried because my parents didn't understand me. On their mind, they thought I am useless, can not be directed, always make them disappointed. Dad, Mom, I'm so sorry if I never be what you want to be.I have hurted you so much. But please understand that I did my best. Maybe SNMPTN is not my way. Universe has a better way for me and us :')

And thanks to everyone that have given me support after that day. It's such meaning world to me. My friend, my namboru, my vanilli, and especially my brothers :) Thank you so much. I promise not to disappointed you twice.

 block 1 line below :)
p.s how about jakarta culinary center ? Look interesting.

Afraid vs Afraid

It's gonna be a big day. Today in 7 p.m the result will be announced. Anyone feel so scared like me? My heart beats irregularly at the moment. Yesterday I just can't sleep after knowing that the announcement was appeared one day before the fixed one. I'm ready for the result. But what can I say to my parent? Especially, to my father. He expects more from me. 

Dad, none of us know what's the result gonna be,even though we felt so great when we did the test,right? I always do my best for you. Always. I'm not a perfect daughter who can always make your dreams come true :( Hope our wishes come true.

Hey, we have new shop. Just a little one but I'm very happy to do my "job". Hehehe :) It opened on Monday, June 27th. No need for grand opening. Haha this is a mobile shop lie not in big city like Medan. The stuff is not full yet. Dad surprised by calling us to come here, in this shop. Great job,Dad.

The first day when our shop opened, in home I just took some photos with (of course) with my mom's shirt behind our home after taking a bath. Hehe..the floral printed with wide neck just fit for me.Yay.I looked different hahahah just kidding.

That broom though..

i looked like i have no breast.lol

Random

Today was the quarterfinals of Indonesia Open.  I was excited for Tantowi-Butet. Man..they beated China. China has grown so fast in Badminton. Happy for Indonesia eventhough My Fran Kurniawan and Pia lost :(

 
After that, me and my brother Arie played badminton in our yard,in front of our home. Hmm..I don't remember the last time I played before this. How about my other brother? He went to Medan this morning with his friends. He said it as a vacation. Envy. I'm here sitting in front of my computer with mind involved the result of my test. sigh.

Good news!

My aunt will come tomorrow! Yay. We are going to have fun in beach. :) And another food news is....My Vanilli come this Sunday and we go together with our lovely auntie.

Finally, I finished my second registering form for Universitas Indonesia. I'll take a test in SMA 2 Medan. Errr...it's so far from our house rental.sigh. Should I take taxi and go early morning? And omg,am i gonna go to Medan alone? No please..

Wait... if the result is good this June,i don't need going to Medan, July 1st. Right? :))
Yesterday, in the night, I feel so beautiful.*puke* so I took photos. Hahaha..

today at my bro's room. Arie still slept. ;)

My brother Alex from Jakarta came to our house this afternoon. He's so cool you know. I remembered when he kept playing organ at our previous house when we were kid! Now he's a singer. I confess he really has good voice. And he told me that in Jakarta there is a cake seller with cycle has a good bell. Baby-Justin Bieber is the bell.Yeah he knew me fucking in love with Justin. Hehe..and the buyer? So all kid around the seller will excited. Nice idea. :)

Fell so blessed.

My family is world for me. Quit all the stuff just for my family. They're my air. Support,love,tender and care are given to me with no doubt. I'm the first kid in my little family. The only one daddy's little girl with two brother. My Dad always takes care to me. He's my hero. My mom,eventhough i often cry because of her,that just because i'm so sensitive for listening every comment from her. I love her and her passion of fashion too.Actually i never just listen when they give me an advise. I think deeply what can i do next.

My little family,when we were kid,we often had same shoes from one shop :)

 My brother Made and Arie. The same celebrated birthday. One cake, Two Candles. Made was born in September and Arie in January. So long,right?

 Me with Daddy

Me with Mommy

Am i cute when i was baby? Haha... I looked so high lol

Feel so blessed, Universe sent me family like this. They always support me in everyway we have discussed together :)

Big Day (?)

Today in my house all people screamed so loud becase my brother got the result of the last examination. Their hard work has been paid with good marks. I'm so proud of them. I was yelling, hugging them and of course jumping more and more. Hahaha..sweet moment ;)

My brother Made got the 1st rank. That's awesome. Yes, he always studies everyday..every single day. Good boy.

And Arie got 20th rank. Not bad, and he can feel the air with ease after knowing that he moves to science class. 

Woohoo!

My brother Made

My Brother Arie

Yes, a big day, isn't it? But I'm still here waiting for my result. This is so fucking hard. 

Wish me Luck this June,30th :')

Day with my Vanilli

That's so nice when we met again. we had a lot of laugh and story. I miss her..and i always miss her.

i don't know the last time we took photo together before this.

 Why i called her "Vanilli" ? Actually her name is Vanni. Because she is beautiful so in Batak language, beauty is Uli,so i united them being Vanilli = Vanni Uli .hehehe :)

i wished she could be here this week. And hug her!