My Best Words on June 29th

Yesterday was "that" day. Yep,the result day of my test. So afraid of getting hurt by the announcement. And it really happened.It should be announced at 7 p.m. I always checked them before the fixed time. I can open it!I can! First view i see was "TIDAK DITERIMA" or not accepted. I was shocked and 'die' for a while. I know why I didn't pass the test. I had done my test well. The problem now is i can't fill 1 chair on that university because they just accept 15 persons for Interior Architecture and 30 persons for Management. See? Even though you filled the paper well and really had done it well, no one could guarantee that you'll pass the test easily. Imagine that, last year there were 600 people who wanted to get into that faculty. How many percent?

The other problem came up. The hardest problem. My parents was disappointed. Just like.. angry to me. It made me cried over night. I cried after seeing my result but in the night I cried because my parents didn't understand me. On their mind, they thought I am useless, can not be directed, always make them disappointed. Dad, Mom, I'm so sorry if I never be what you want to be.I have hurted you so much. But please understand that I did my best. Maybe SNMPTN is not my way. Universe has a better way for me and us :')

And thanks to everyone that have given me support after that day. It's such meaning world to me. My friend, my namboru, my vanilli, and especially my brothers :) Thank you so much. I promise not to disappointed you twice.

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p.s how about jakarta culinary center ? Look interesting.

Afraid vs Afraid

It's gonna be a big day. Today in 7 p.m the result will be announced. Anyone feel so scared like me? My heart beats irregularly at the moment. Yesterday I just can't sleep after knowing that the announcement was appeared one day before the fixed one. I'm ready for the result. But what can I say to my parent? Especially, to my father. He expects more from me. 

Dad, none of us know what's the result gonna be,even though we felt so great when we did the test,right? I always do my best for you. Always. I'm not a perfect daughter who can always make your dreams come true :( Hope our wishes come true.

Hey, we have new shop. Just a little one but I'm very happy to do my "job". Hehehe :) It opened on Monday, June 27th. No need for grand opening. Haha this is a mobile shop lie not in big city like Medan. The stuff is not full yet. Dad surprised by calling us to come here, in this shop. Great job,Dad.

The first day when our shop opened, in home I just took some photos with (of course) with my mom's shirt behind our home after taking a bath. Hehe..the floral printed with wide neck just fit for me.Yay.I looked different hahahah just kidding.

That broom though..

i looked like i have no breast.lol

Random

Today was the quarterfinals of Indonesia Open.  I was excited for Tantowi-Butet. Man..they beated China. China has grown so fast in Badminton. Happy for Indonesia eventhough My Fran Kurniawan and Pia lost :(

 
After that, me and my brother Arie played badminton in our yard,in front of our home. Hmm..I don't remember the last time I played before this. How about my other brother? He went to Medan this morning with his friends. He said it as a vacation. Envy. I'm here sitting in front of my computer with mind involved the result of my test. sigh.

Good news!

My aunt will come tomorrow! Yay. We are going to have fun in beach. :) And another food news is....My Vanilli come this Sunday and we go together with our lovely auntie.

Finally, I finished my second registering form for Universitas Indonesia. I'll take a test in SMA 2 Medan. Errr...it's so far from our house rental.sigh. Should I take taxi and go early morning? And omg,am i gonna go to Medan alone? No please..

Wait... if the result is good this June,i don't need going to Medan, July 1st. Right? :))
Yesterday, in the night, I feel so beautiful.*puke* so I took photos. Hahaha..

today at my bro's room. Arie still slept. ;)

My brother Alex from Jakarta came to our house this afternoon. He's so cool you know. I remembered when he kept playing organ at our previous house when we were kid! Now he's a singer. I confess he really has good voice. And he told me that in Jakarta there is a cake seller with cycle has a good bell. Baby-Justin Bieber is the bell.Yeah he knew me fucking in love with Justin. Hehe..and the buyer? So all kid around the seller will excited. Nice idea. :)

Fell so blessed.

My family is world for me. Quit all the stuff just for my family. They're my air. Support,love,tender and care are given to me with no doubt. I'm the first kid in my little family. The only one daddy's little girl with two brother. My Dad always takes care to me. He's my hero. My mom,eventhough i often cry because of her,that just because i'm so sensitive for listening every comment from her. I love her and her passion of fashion too.Actually i never just listen when they give me an advise. I think deeply what can i do next.

My little family,when we were kid,we often had same shoes from one shop :)

 My brother Made and Arie. The same celebrated birthday. One cake, Two Candles. Made was born in September and Arie in January. So long,right?

 Me with Daddy

Me with Mommy

Am i cute when i was baby? Haha... I looked so high lol

Feel so blessed, Universe sent me family like this. They always support me in everyway we have discussed together :)

Big Day (?)

Today in my house all people screamed so loud becase my brother got the result of the last examination. Their hard work has been paid with good marks. I'm so proud of them. I was yelling, hugging them and of course jumping more and more. Hahaha..sweet moment ;)

My brother Made got the 1st rank. That's awesome. Yes, he always studies everyday..every single day. Good boy.

And Arie got 20th rank. Not bad, and he can feel the air with ease after knowing that he moves to science class. 

Woohoo!

My brother Made

My Brother Arie

Yes, a big day, isn't it? But I'm still here waiting for my result. This is so fucking hard. 

Wish me Luck this June,30th :')

Day with my Vanilli

That's so nice when we met again. we had a lot of laugh and story. I miss her..and i always miss her.

i don't know the last time we took photo together before this.

 Why i called her "Vanilli" ? Actually her name is Vanni. Because she is beautiful so in Batak language, beauty is Uli,so i united them being Vanilli = Vanni Uli .hehehe :)

i wished she could be here this week. And hug her!