we're not in a movie
we're unable to peek the script
..if there is one
whatever happens next
we will never know until it happens
i keep my self present
i am not hiding anything
the faintest voice inside my body
ask me to runaway as fast as i can
the magnetic field is so strong
i'd tried to back off
but you came closer every time
there was a big space and distance
i know you can feel the absence too
playing game is not my thing
i've said that it's not my job to make you
come clean
i'm sad that you still hide it until today
i appreciate you and i respect you
i do
but there's a biggest line between
secrecy and privacy..
i hope you are more honest
so you and i can set the boundaries
or even never set a scene at all
because now
it's so grey
and i cannot lift the sins
bruises everywhere
honesty and love are rare in this generation..
i can't set my step any further
i wish i can.
but i know it feels so wrong
i don't want to hurt anyone
i have a heart too and so do others
do you?
or do you like me this way?
making me feeling guilty all the time towards this sentiment and become your side dish?
i am not an option
i am not your "sometimes"
i am not your "just in case.."
though i still wanna share
a lot of things with you..
funny how universe works this way
keep giving me answers i never thought i'd need..
and i still wanna hear it from you
and not like this..
